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I shaved my hair off!!

Hello there, and happy new year! Hope you’ve had a great start to the year.

On the 27th of November I decided to shave my hair off! I managed to raise £542 in total for the Mutch brothers which I am absolutely over the moon about!

I did film myself shaving it off so if you would like to see that video then click here

It’s not something that I’ve ever done before and the shortest I’ve had my hair before this was a bob! I had no idea what to expect but honestly I am so glad that I did it. It’s a whole new experience and saves a LOT of time in the morning! I keep getting complimented and people are asking about it, and saying that they would love to do it too.

If you’ve ever thought about shaving your hair but have been too scared then I say go for it! After all, hair grows back ❤


Goodbye for now little buns

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It’s been a long time.. (Update)

Hi, I don’t remember last time I was on here, nor do I want to look. I know I enjoy writing, but it takes a lot of motivation to start. I’m not making any promises to myself, but I will just write when I want to, or when I need to.

I finished college, so I am finally a qualified makeup artist, but I’m struggling to get a job at the minute as I have no retail experience and unfortunately that is looked more highly upon, no matter your qualifications. However I am thinking of going to University next September to study Creative Makeup, and actually get a degree, which I never thought would happen!

I’ve started therapy again, for the fourth time, and hoping that I feel better and get taught better coping mechanisms for when I’m finished.

Tomorrow it is mine and my boyfriends 2 year anniversary and I couldn’t be more grateful to have someone who understands me and supports me through everything. Even in my darkest hours, he’s always there. A lot of people talk about love like its absolutely perfect, but it’s not. You have your little spats here and there, and go through some tough shit, but you do it together, and still love each other just as much.

I’m also raising money for my friend and his brother by shaving my hair off on the 27th of November! If you would like to read about their story and donate click here! Any donation will help so much, whether its £1 or £10.

Other than that, I don’t really know much of what I’m doing right now, but that’s okay. I don’t need to have a plan for everything.

Goodbye for now little buns.




Laying my cards on the table

Okay, so, to have a blog I’m guessing you guys need to know about me. Well, first off, I’m 17 and currently stuck in a rut. I went to the doctors suffering from chest pains, shortness of breath, extreme dizziness and fatigue. After looking for all physical causes he said I was suffering from stress and anxiety and I should be “climbing Mount Everest in the morning and striding across the Sahara Desert at noon” and sent me on my way. Since then my anxiety has gotten a lot worse and I believe I am also suffering from depression.

My Mother believes that it is the stress of school that is affecting me and I am due to leave after my last exam on Friday. I have been searching high and low for an apprenticeship and after having a successful interview for one I am just not 100% that it is what I want to do. Although I do love working with children I’m not sure that I am completely ready for this. I am supposed to go in for a half day next week but after getting off the phone I burst into tears, I’ve never been so petrified in all my life. Which then makes me feel that perhaps it is not school that is causing my stress but just life itself.

I have always wanted to sing for a living but my low confidence and self esteem kicked that one out the window and to the bottom of the ocean. Then I wanted to work with make up, I love everything about it and how you can make somebody so happy by just applying make up on their face and enhancing their natural beauty. After watching youtube videos religiously I have always wanted my own channel but I just don’t know where to start. What would I film? Would anyone watch my videos? How to I make my channel different to all the millions of other beauty channels? But I suppose we shall see in the future if I ever jump into the deep end and just go for it.

Many moons ago I did have a youtube channel where I would just sing my little heart out. But after some digs from people at school I removed each video and deleted my channel.

So this is what is going on in my head at the moment, good bye for now little buns ^.^