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I hate myself. 

I always try to promote positivity and self love. I smile, laugh and pretend that everything is fine and that I live a normal, happy life. But that’s far from the truth.

As much as I try and convince myself otherwise, I hate myself. I very strongly, whole heartedly, hate myself. I find myself disgusting, repulsive and just an absolute mess of a human being. 

Sure, I know that I’m a good person, but my body is something that I just completely loathe. I can honestly say there isn’t one part of my body that I like, apart from my right eyebrow in a mirrored image if that counts. 

I’ve spent night after night searching online how to lose weight, what the best methods are, what the new fads are, and even whether I should just starve myself. I sit on the internet for hours, lost and completely numb. No matter what I do now, it doesn’t work. In late 2015 I lost a lot of weight and was happy, but here I am, just over a year later and a whopping 5 stone heavier, disgusted at myself for what I have become. 

I hate myself. 

Goodbye for now little buns, hopefully I can make a change 

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I’m a fat vegan

HEY GUYS 

So I see so many things online about people using veganism to lose weight and have a healthy lifestyle, but I find so many things that are accidentally vegan and then eat it all..oops. Let’s be honest I know you’re curious so here’s a little list for you; Pringles, co op jam donuts, Oreos, popcorn, kettle chips, chilli Doritos, apple pie…. Do you see why I struggle?? 

I haven’t put on weight since going vegan, but I haven’t lost any either. I know I need to knuckle down so I am taking each day as it comes. Let’s see what the future holds, eh? Hopefully some good shit 

Goodbye for now little buns 

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